언제나 짝사랑을 그만 두기 힘든 이유는..

"오늘 포기하고.. 내일 다시 사랑 하기 때문이다.."

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                                   what i am now?
If i didn't love you,why i can't stop my tears
                                 If i didn't love you,why i'm crying now~
                                 If i didn't love you,why i read your message every night
                                 If i didn't love you,why i always read our diary when online
                                 If i didn't love you,why i missing uuuuuuuuu^^ ">

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Another side of my love life
I was finding some website to download songs and movies but it closed.i was upset,at that time i saw some interested website.it's for find foreigner friends and partner,so i tried to register it.Almost are Korean and i'm crazy in Korea,so i like it^^
In this site, they have two type of member thai are basic and premiem member.i'm basic member,i found a korean guy he was basic member too.i was surprised cuz' he sent me a wink and i winked back to him.Many wink had been sent and, at last he sent me mail. he told me that he paid money for he can sent me mail.wow~ i'm surprised again cuz' it's so expensive and waste of money.i feel good about this and i think he is kind and gentle. we keep in touch since 7 February,2007 until i'm finished my semester.
we had a great time together and i have good feeling for him.i've never think i can feel happy or sad with internet people before.Because i never like people who get stuck with computer and chat with unknown person.my summer, i backed home then,we can't keep in touch well.i can online at day but he can online at night  so, we just sent mail to each other.

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the man's story

when i was out from millitory.. it is in the late january

i had many time and free

so i found something to do and start chat in UBLove

just became curious about foreigner

i wanted make foreigner friend

and someday i met some one who is "eunso88"

we wink each other.. finaly i knew her E-mail

after that we chat many times

reason of my wink

just external was differ with my country people

it was just curiousity

but the more chat, i feel she is purity different from korean girl

and she really like my country so i was happy

for february we could many chat and start like each other

and for march we couldt chat but send mail each other                        

sometimes i wrote some thai language.. then she really like it

the beginning afril she couldt sent mail well

i think she feel boring to me but it is my misunderstand

it is because of thai's holiday "song ku ran"

and she always say to me "sarang he" and

in my birthday she called to me and wrote some letter

i was very happy but when every she called to me

i think "because of communicate,maybe we cant love each other"

but still she everyday said to me "sarang he"

so i decided i will go thai for meet her

as soon as my vacation start i went to thai

but i didt know it will be come bad matter

i thought, if we will meet first

i will hug her but i couldt

because of she seem to not love me

i was confuse "because of my face not good to her??"

"i was some mistake to her??" and so on...

but finaly i thought "it is just tired" that day we was shopping

but just see.. and went to phitsanulok..

and arrived at about 02:00 she take me to hotel without talking

she register to hotel and she leave hotel without any talking

i was fear a little because it was dark and building to hotel

but i thought "just different from country culture"

next day she didt come until 10:00 so i found public telephone

and called to her. she said "i will go after 1 hour"

so i was wait and then we went to temple and folk museum

just happy with her in my case but she seem to didt like

and she leave and tell me will be back at 5 o'clock

that time i was sad.. and she came over 5 o'clock

and went to her university, meet her friend and went to

market together that time she seem to happy because of with friend

im happy too in this time she look happy and her friend kind to me

i was very thanks to her friend

sunny(somebody said to her 'buffalo' but cute), one (she was

small but pretty and give me some present)

another(i saw her in picture already,seem to simmi's best friend)

i wanted go to karaoke with her but couldt

next day i wake early but i didt call her because i dont want annoying

her just i travel alone but i couldt because there are wide field

i couldt walk so i went internet cafe for 2hour and take rest in hotel

and her came to hotel but seem to no happy...and she didt know where

we should go.. i think "because of me that i never preparation for trip

just defend on her so she feel hard.." it is my false..

and she said will be back at 5~6 o'clock she leave to me again

i didt want hard to her so i decided leave her

i bought ticket at 4 o'clock and bus will be come at 5:30

that time i wrote message to her and i hope read my message

and look for me and prevent go to bangkok before i leave

but i leave phitsanulok.. arrive bangkok at 11:00 and look for hotel

and i could..

next day morning i was very pain my heart so i called to her

i thought " she will dont receive my call " but receive my call

i was pleasent and ask we can chat now.. and we chat..

and then i went airport at 2 o'clock and wait my airplane

for 11 hours.. (that time i was very sad... and painful)

i couldt travel more.. when i arrive to korea i look for computer

at once.. maybe she will write some good news but nothing

maybe change her heart to me i dont know why she avoid me

but just wait for her "pom li kit" will be decide...

O bba will come here for me, i'm really exciting^^
i will pick up obba at Mo Chit bus terminal this Thursday~

마음을 넓고 깊게 해주는 말 .....


               "미안해"







겸손한 인격의 탑을 쌓는 말 .....


                "고마워"




날마다 새롭고 감미로운 말 .....


                "사랑해"




사람을 사람답게 자리잡아 주는 말 .....


                 "잘했어"




화해와 평화를 이루는 말 .....


           "내가 잘못했어"




모든 것 덮어 하나되게 해주는 말 .....


                    "우리는"




세상에서 가장 귀한 보배로운 말 .....


                    "친구야"




봄비처럼 사람을 쑥쑥 키워주는 말 .....


              "네 생각은 어때?"




항상 모든 날들을 새로워지게 하는 말.....


            "첫마음으로 살아가자"



              ....- 좋은 생각 中 - ....